i never forget you
I never think of forgetting you…I just want to give time for us to think and relax. The pain is still fresh. Also I want to be ready when I face you. I don’t want to cry in front of you because I am not a baby anymore. I’ve realize that when our dean talk to us last Monday, he said “look at yourself and decide if you are mature enough or you are still a baby that can’t make a decision”. By then I look at myself and think of what I did. It was the most stupid thing I’ve done. I can’t believe it. I didn’t think of the consequences. And now I am alone. I’ve lost everything that I’ve treasured, my friends, trust, my love, including myself. Nothings left except guilt, pain, and shame. Stop hurting each other. . .I’m sorry . . . please just give me time . . . that’s all I need now. . .Thanks for everything that you’ve given and shared. . . I am the one to blame not you or anyone. . . I always think of the things that would be happening right now when I don’t do that shit thing. . ."siguro happy kaau". . . "laag2x". . ."taz after mg-date mi sqng love na tao". . .but it all crash down b’coz of my stupidity. . .fucking shit "me". . . I can’t get back those times. . .maybe I can get it back but it’s not the same anymore. . .
Time has a way of healing. . .I know sorries, just wouldn’t do it . . .But I keep climbing and hoping things would change. . .
You are stupid I admit, but there are some things in the future that can replace the past. . . and now? What would you be doing with that?
You know WE CAN INVENT THE FUTURE, our decisions gazes up and gives us the adrenaline to pursue things even they are not okay. But of course we tend to live different and live on the past why not live on for the future? it awaits. We can change it. .
Comment by Abz — October 4, 2008 @ 5:55 pm