i never forget you
I never think of forgetting you…I just want to give time for us to think and relax. The pain is still fresh. Also I want to be ready when I face you. I don’t want to cry in front of you because I am not a baby anymore. I’ve realize that when our dean talk to us last Monday, he said “look at yourself and decide if you are mature enough or you are still a baby that can’t make a decision”. By then I look at myself and think of what I did. It was the most stupid thing I’ve done. I can’t believe it. I didn’t think of the consequences. And now I am alone. I’ve lost everything that I’ve treasured, my friends, trust, my love, including myself. Nothings left except guilt, pain, and shame. Stop hurting each other. . .I’m sorry . . . please just give me time . . . that’s all I need now. . .Thanks for everything that you’ve given and shared. . . I am the one to blame not you or anyone. . . I always think of the things that would be happening right now when I don’t do that shit thing. . ."siguro happy kaau". . . "laag2x". . ."taz after mg-date mi sqng love na tao". . .but it all crash down b’coz of my stupidity. . .fucking shit "me". . . I can’t get back those times. . .maybe I can get it back but it’s not the same anymore. . .
Time has a way of healing. . .I know sorries, just wouldn’t do it . . .But I keep climbing and hoping things would change. . .

